There is hesitation. The "I've missed" implies a fear that the dynamic has changed or been forgotten.
Based on the keyword trajectory, here is the likely narrative architecture of the story: UsePOV - Kell Fire - I-ve Missed My Freeuse Mom...
You, the reader, are returning home after an extended absence (college, work, travel). Your mother, who has established a "freeuse" household in your absence (or re-established an old understanding), welcomes you back. The story explores your first few hours/days of re-integrating into this dynamic, focusing on the emotional reunion layered with explicit freeuse encounters. There is hesitation
That’s when I know something has changed. travel). Your mother